This morning I’m going to my third al-anon meeting. So far I’m finding them very helpful because the people at the meetings are teaching me to detach in love from the alcoholic in my life, namely Carol. Also, I’m supposed to learn to take care of myself. Heh. New concept for me. I’m so used to taking care of others (sounds rather martyrish (is that even a word?) doesn’t it? But that’s the truth. I have, for most of my life, felt like a non-person. Mostly like a blob, a non-entity. So for me to begin to recognize myself as someone who needs care which truly only I can give is like – wow.

Wish me luck.