David Bowie in 1969 and 1995. I got an interesting email from WordPress in which told me they “missed me.” You and I both know that’s propaganda-esque crap, but the stats show people still visit my site even when I don’t write, which hasn’t been for months.

The problem is, I’ve changed a lot in that time. I don’t want to write about the same things. I’m not the same person anymore. I don’t go to Al-Anon, I hardly whine about my sister and nephew anymore, and it’s just not on my radar. They live in Ann Arbor, and I don’t see them often enough that they are a problem for me. My boundaries are intact.

What I do struggle with, what is the “new me” if you will, is social phobia and panic and anxiety. I’m also trying to read through the list of books in 1,001 Books You Must Read Before You Die. Given that I’m already 52, I realize I have to read faster. LOL

Crocheting is still a big thing for me, but I don’t want a separate blog about it. I want to talk about it here when I’ve accomplished something especially difficult, of which I’m proud.

Also, my mother is 87 now. Sometimes we get along super, just fantastic, and other times we are at each other’s throats. I can’t explain it. I might need to blog about that here.

If this new blog approach sounds like something you might be interested in, keep on coming! If not, see you on the flip side, and thank you for reading as long as you have. You are all dears.

Have a sunny-side up day.

6 thoughts on “Changes

  1. Chris, you sound like you’ve made wonderful progress during your absence. It’s cool that your blog title is still appropriate, and your struggles are, in may ways, tougher to overcome (because they’re yours!). The fact that you ARE dealing with them is wonderful (but very painful at times, I am sure).

    I’ve been worried about you and your mom for some time now. You two depend upon one another, and you’re not going to be together forever (at least not in the physical world). Maybe some of your recent troubles are related to the challenge of preparing for inevitable changes over the next ten to fifteen years. Couple that with Lucy not getting any younger either, and your support structure is coming into a scary time, which you have to deal with. I don’t envy you in having to deal with these things, but deal with them you will. I am confident in that for you.

    (If I’m out of line, feel free to delete this comment.) Hugs and Happy New Year! I’m in awe of your reading goal.


    • Oh, if only replying was like riding a bicycle! People use these phrases so cavalierly, when I don’t think it’s what they mean at all. 😛 Thank you for thinking I’ve made progress and, yes, my blog title is way still appropriate, only I’ll be focusing on me! Pretty freaky stuff.

      YOU can never be out of line, dear Jean. After all these years I consider you family, and I hope you’ll consider me the same—in terms of speaking your mind. If we can’t be honest with each other, what’s the point? Besides, you are so gentle about it, it hardly even hurts. 🙂 Yes, my mother is going through lots of changes. Not so much in her mind, but physically. More and more aches and pains going up and down the stairs, more daytime naps needed…. The climate we live in doesn’t exactly help, as I read an article about keeping the “elderly” safe in the cold…making sure they didn’t have to leave the house, that the temp was appropriate for them etc. (We’ve had some 6 degree temps, adding below wind chill factors).

      Plus Lucy is sick. She has a sore throat, and being on disability I can’t just jet on over to the vet every time something happens. So we’ve been giving her baby tylenol hidden in peanut butter. Seems to be helping.

      Hugs and Happy New Year back. What’s worse about the reading goal is I’ve pledged to read 300 books this year on Goodreads. I’m already 5 books behind schedule! How does that happen? I’m never without a book in my hand! LOL


      • I love how you put “elderly”in quotes. My husband scoffs at being labeled elderly, and I’ll bet your mom does, too. He’s 77, so he has some catching up to do, but he experiences all those things you mentioned. Heck, I experience all those things, and I’m only 54.

        I’m so sorry Lucy has been sick. I hope she’s feeling chipper again soon.


      • Jean, I experience all those things and I’m two years younger!

        Thanks for the well wishes about Lucy. She’ll be fine. As long as she’s still playing and eating, I’m not too worried.


  2. I didn’t get an e-mail 😦 and I haven’t written for months either. Maybe no one’s visiting my blog. Oh well. That being said, this is your blog so write what you want when you want and if people don’t like it, they can take a long walk off a short pier.


    • Do you have a WordPress blog, Lisa? Anyway, better off, I say. Who wants an email reminding them of their failure to write? Wow, you’re tough! “if people don’t like it, they can take a long walk off a short pier.” I’m not sure I’m that tough, but I will try to write what’s on my mind. Thanks sweetie!

      Happy New Year!


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