To Video Log or Not: That is the question.

Okay, besides working on my short story, crocheting, and struggling with a surprise gift for my mom’s 90th birthday, I’m hoping to start a Video Blog on November 1st. Of this year. Yep, that will be the same month as NaNoWriMo, but – hey! It – hopefully – won’t take me all day every day to write 50k by November 30th. So, after talking with my therapist, I decided to make a pro and con list about it.

See, my therapist thinks that because I had  and sometimes still have terrible self-consciousness while walking Pookie, it might not be the best thing for me; vlogging, that is. I walk Pookie daily (unless it rains too freaking long like it did yesterday) and it’s better. If I focus on what I’m doing, walking Pookie, I don’t really have time to wonder what everyone else is thinking.

So, here’s the list:


  • I could possibly help raise awareness about mental illness and all that it entails
  • It’s been said, and (even though I love to write) it’s sometimes right; a picture speaks a thousand words.
  • It would challenge my vulnerability
  • If just one person is made to feel not so alone, it will beat all the negative replies I might get
  • Being my authentic self, not worrying whether my hair is a mess, or not worrying about the scars on my face and hands, will be a massive breath of fresh air
  • Nothing is more real than the truth staring you (the watcher – lol) in the face


  • I might not raise any awareness at all. People might be saturated with mental illness and just “change the channel.”
  • Maybe a picture does speak a thousand words, but my writing is kinda decent, right?
  • I would be completely vulnerable, like those nightmares when you wake up, walk in late for an exam, and just then realize you’re entirely naked.
  • Everyone I know and even people I hardly know at all will see me.
  • What if I totally fudge it?
  • I’m too ugly. What if I make people gag just looking at my face?
So, that’s it. I still have some time to think about it until November. Thoughts?

2 thoughts on “To Video Log or Not: That is the question.

  1. As a person who often worries about being too ugly, I think one of the things I’ve had to accept is that this is just my face and how I look and even the people I think are ugly aren’t really ugly (and if I think so, it’s usually about something else not just their looks). It’s sort of like getting used to how my voice sounds when it’s recorded, I guess.

    Anyway, I look forward to hearing what you decide.

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    • Thanks, Akilah! That’s a beautiful name, by the way. It’s exotic sounding. Christina is so–blah. Anyway, I’ve decided video logging is one of my New Year’s resolutions. Instead of using YouTube (that freaked me out, the possibility of getting tons of negative responses; people are only human), I’m using my Samsung Galaxy to record and then upload right to the blog.
      That way, I think I’ll have more control over it. Although, if I’m trying to reach as many people as possible, merely uploading it to my blog might be limiting. Well, it’s an excellent place to start, I think.
      Thanks, again. –Chris

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