Tagged higher power

Putting On That Other Pair Of Shoes

Gentle readers, I’ve been trying and trying to write this blog, wanting it to be gentle and light, to bring you good vibes so you’ll come back and keep reading. But my mind and heart are heavy with all the colossal blunders I’m making that I keep wanting to slough off onto my illness. A mixed episode of bipolar disorder is nothing to laugh about. It’s like a modern version of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. My loved ones never know who they’re going to be speaking to from one minute to the next. Until I got into Al-Anon, I…

Turning It Over

This morning I’m going to attend the Amazing Grace Al-Anon meeting, and, because my sponsor is away on vacation, I’m taking over her duty of handing out yearly tokens for March birthdays. I hope you don’t take offense at my sense of humor with the image I’ve posted here. I don’t have a cat, but my dog would gladly take the job. ūüėČ She thinks she’s the boss of me. It’s all tongue-in-cheek of course. I DO have a higher power, and it’s not me, or my dog. It’s God. I’m thrilled to hand out tokens this morning, because I…

Steps To Save Your Sanity!

I hope it doesn’t make me heartless to not write about the tragedy in Connecticut yesterday. I’m just as shocked and broken up as any of you, but I’m just choosing not to write about it. Today, keeping in the holiday theme of the month, I thought we’d talk about how to hang on to our sanity during this time. It can be difficult with family obligations, financial crises, or other high stress situations. Just fill in this blank: “The toughest part of the holidays is most definitely _____.” Now, let’s figure out how to deal with whatever you (or…

Let Go of Expectations and Outcomes

I’m learning there’s a reason “Let go” comes before “Let God” in that particular recovery slogan. Have you ever watched a baby just before she falls asleep, if you happen to be blessed enough to hold her in your arms? The eyelids fight to stay open. They flutter closed, the tiny hands begin to relax . . . and then boom! The legs kick out again, the hands clench into little fists and the eyelids struggle sooo hard to stay open. Just¬†one more minute.¬†Not ready for sleep quite yet. Might miss something.¬†Yawn.¬† Finally, the battle ends and the eyes close…

Grateful Thoughts

“A moment of gratitude makes a difference in your attitude.” –Bruce Wilkinson Sometimes it’s difficult to be grateful. When I first joined Al-Anon, I had to search for things to be grateful over. I mean, I had to¬†search.¬†At first, it was little, tiny things like “putting my feet on the floor” in the morning as I got out of bed, being grateful that I “had feet” to put on the floor . . . I’m not sure why that was. Maybe I was so focused on¬†fixing¬†the alcoholic in my life, so angry that I was even there in the first…

Making Change

Making change is hard. It takes determination, focus, and trust in a Higher Power. This morning, as I was sitting outside talking to my Super Sponsor on the phone, we made a date for tomorrow to have lunch, I hung and started to dial my sister to tell her about it. It took me almost a full minute to remember she’s in jail and I can’t call her. MAKING CHANGE IS HARD. IT TAKES DETERMINATION, FOCUS, AND TRUST IN A HIGHER POWER.¬† As I was sitting there, waiting for my heart to stop aching, an illustration came to me about…

It’s July Already? Step Seven Time!

The 7th step says: “Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.” This is an image of the 3rd Step Prayer Book Marker available at¬†hazelden.org, in their bookstore. On the other side is the 7th step prayer, which reads as follows: My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows.Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do your bidding. Amen. That prayer is taken from…

Who is Your Higher Power?

Often, when people get to the 2nd step,¬†Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity, they are not quite sure what to do. Many (including yours truly) have come from a place where they felt so beaten down they didn’t believe anything or anyone could fix it. I was told “Keep coming back.” So I did. I¬†came.¬†That’s all I could do for a while. I came and got my butt in the chair and I listened. I¬†came¬†and then I came to¬†and then I came to believe.¬† It’s a process, and it looks different for…

A is for Acceptance

Wanting that feeling of being approved/accepted comes from deep within our hearts, and it starts when we are very young. I remember needing nothing more than to be accepted as a child, for who I was. It seemed my well-meaning parents were always wanting to make me into something different. A better, more-polished, more-polite, more-confident, more . . . ¬†version of Chris. It seems like it takes so much for us to shake off those old tapes and that old wiring and reach for something better, even if that something better is so spectacular as to be a higher power,…